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In the end, no matter how many times you try to fix things, no matter how many things fall apart and come back together, and no matter how hard it is to let it go, some things will just never go back to how they used to be...

Its unfair...how come happiness only lasts a few minutes but sadness can last a lifetime?and i noticed that when you meant everything to me,i was nothing to you...I don't know what to say. It's one of those days...One of those days where I want to just fade away...















**Happy Eiduladha everyone...

...

Sometimes i feel like im on the edge of cliff with no where to go but down....

Puasa Hari 'Arafah

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious,Most Merciful...

Puasa hari Arafah.

Puasa hari ‘Arafah ialah puasa sunat pada hari kesembilan Dzulhijjah yang disunatkan bagi mereka yang tidak melakukan ibadah haji. Kelebihan berpuasa pada hari ini ialah ia dapat menghapuskan dosa-dosa setahun yang telah lalu dan dosa setahun yang akan datang, sebagaimana hadith yang telah diriwayatkan daripada Abu Qatadah al-Anshari ra:

Dan Rasulullah SAW ditanya tentang berpuasa di hari ‘Arafah. Maka Baginda bersabda: “Ia menebus dosa setahun yang telah lalu dan setahun yang akan datang.” (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim).

dejected

things started to get worse when it got better...

its 5am.my fist hurts,my head is aching,my eyes are burning,my heart is bleeding.i need some sleep...

i feel so dejected...

















Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go...

jgn layan post ni.jgn bace.

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marah!










****kan dah ckp jgn baca post ni!DEGIL!

my boyfriend stalks me.

haha.mind the title please.its true. :P anyway,here are some updates dear bloggie.

okay i've deleted my old post.too much rage.tak bagus untuk kesihatan.watched discovery channel,it says that a person who gets angry easily have a shorter life span.and will easily get high blood pressure.huhu.so,myra,chill.

anyway.tomorrow rizal will be back home.and will bake a cheese cake for him. :D

baked cupcakes a couple of days ago.it was my first attempt and they turn out to be hard as rock.not exactly like rock but it wasnt really spongey.the taste is okay.not bad for a first attempt. :P did it al by myself.haha.a waste of butter,sugar and flour. :P

oh and the babies(kittens) are 2 weeks old.and they are healthy. :) will upload pictures of them soon.

more updates?the new semester will begin in 11 days. :( sad2.oh and the doctor said i need to eat vitamin c.i cant swallow,so bought the chewable ones. :)

and jlo glow smells lovely!thank you daddy! :)) next,im aiming for britney spears' curious or kylie minogue's perfume!

daddy bought new slippers too.comel!thank youuu daddy!

glad we're okay and back to normal now. :) i may still have the jealous streak with me.but who cares.haha.you-know-who-you-are hun. :D thanks for the adorable ring :)) <--- a reaaally big smile over here. :P love u bebeh.

good news!azela finished her diploma!and she'll be home and we could hangout! :D yeays!

my big brother will be graduating from uni of liverpool july next year :D

and im in love with s.e t707 and nokia n97 mini.gorgeous!

will get tickets for new moon!yeay2! here i come!

okay,i noticed that i used too many smileys over here and i sound a bit immature.mind my immatureness here people.thanks.cheers people.

have you ever...

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like crying and crying until you are out of tears?and let your eyes puffy and red the next day?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like throwing things in your room?and let everything be messy?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like hurting yourself so hard?and let the fresh red blood ooze from the cut?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like breaking something?and watch it break into pieces?

have you ever felt so sad that you just wanted to be left alone for days?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like breaking the mirror when your see your own reflection?

have you ever felt so sad that you just wanted to turn on sad music so loud until you feel like crying again?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like you are about to lose your mind?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like you re going through manic depression?and wanted to eat the whole bottle of anti-depressants?

have you ever felt so sad that you just wanted to laugh out loud without even care the people around you?

have you ever felt so sad that you thought you'd never be happy again?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like wrapping yourself in the coldlight of darkness?

have you ever felt so sad that you feel like walking on the beach alone with the moonlight beaming on you?

have you ever felt so sad that you wished that someone would plunge a knife into your heart because it is less painful that way?

have you ever wished that someone would at least care if you wrote all this...?


think about it...





-mindreader-

a tornado came into my room (ameenah)

overall sem ni,was okay.qs pun stay up jugak.everyday tidur lmbat.standard 3am or 4am.bgn subuh and then tido balek.cuz usually class starts at 9/10 am.this semester i took 9 subjects including study circle 1.so,the schedule was kinda pack.but i can live with it.there were loads of assignments,tasks,group works.

you know how dull and tiring it feels when we have to walk here and there,the bilik tv,studio and elsewhere to just sit down and discuss till the sun says hello.okay.penat kerja groupwork ni. and the worst part throughout the semester is...i've been living with a 5 year old girl who doesnt know how to fix herself and her territory in our compartment.the worst roomate i've ever had!just let the pictures explain....

our compartment.

her things.strewn all over her territory.

books and notes under the bed?

left her lappie and carbonated bottles?scruched up newspapers?

ohh.this?i practically screamed too,when i saw this.what is this?pieces of bread on the floor.guess she was full while eating and threw them on the floor.digusting.

dirty clothes bundled on the bed.plastic bags.bags.notes?half of the bed.

the other half of the bed.

on her desk.notes.bread.purple tshirt.can and bottle.used tissue.

on the shelf.

under the locker.i thought we were supposed to put shoes there.i guess she hadnt have any room left for her notes.so she stuffed em there.

i know its kinda cruel.but i cannot stand it living with a girl like that.a sight for sore eyes.yes.and memalukan when my friends visited my room.

...im hopeless....

penat when kita buat baik to someone and someone tu tak even appreciate apa yg kita buat.lg nak sakitkan hati kita,adalah...sedih.sgt sedih.especially org yg sgt rapat dgn kita.rase menyesal buat baik pun ada.tp x boleh mcm tu.ku bukan cm tu...manusia,mmg cepat lupa.tak kira dr segi apa.and manusia mmg ramai yang berkira atas dunia ni.

dia x prnah fikir kita byk berkorban untuk dia,byk habiskan duit,masa and tenaga untuk dia.and kita x pernah kisah pun apa yang kita dah buat untuk dia,biarpun benda tu susah sekali pun.and sesungguhnya,kita x pernah harapkan balasan dr dia,tp balasan yg diterima cuma hati yg sakit.apa salah kita sebenarnya...?satu kesalahan mampu menutupi seribu kebaikan.

**to someone : thanks sbb call.walaupun jauh and dah renggang,tp dia still call.i know you're still unable to forget..

goodbye to you - michelle branch

...

i was crying my heart out
because i was hurt again
and you didnt even care
i was a fool
i didnt realise

the night of the gig

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious,Most Merciful...

okay.last 2 nights,i was feelin kinda blue.so i thought of goin karaoke with my friends.i mean,like to let all out.the emotions and the mixed up feelin i have at the pit of my tummy.and suddenly syikin and my other 3 friends planned to go to one utama.and they asked me if i wanted to tag along.cool.just to have fun and to watch a gig.i've never been to any gigs or concerts before.no way.mummy wont let me,of course.

around 230pm i arrived at terminal putra.waiting anxiously for syikin,ida,fiza and pnut.the theme?indie.i wore a plaid black and white blouse over a black pair of jeans.ida,syikin and pnut were wearing vests which they bought a day before.the whole journey to ou took us about 2 and a half hours!seriously.i was dying inside waiting for the bus.gaah.

around 5++pm,we went to several stores.ida bought a bag at bonita.and us bought our own accessories.next after browsin through several stores,we performed asr prayers and waited for maghrib prayers as well.and immediately took our dinner afterwards.we watched the gig around 830pm.each and everyone of us bought 4 packets of chipters.that makes 20packets all together.huhu.

i had a feelin that mummy was going to call even after she called a couple of times before.and yes,i was right and she did.the other friends wanted to stay there until midnight.i of course knew mummy wont allow me to do so.(anak dara x elok balik lewat tgh mlm).haha.then mummy asked daddy to pick me up,as soon as i hung up the phone.

yup,around 945 i think,daddy came.sempat tgk yuna perform 4 songs and faizal tahir perform a couple of songs.they were okay(since im NOT into them).so imagine me standing there,staring blankly at their performances,without any feeling of awe or amused.not even a teeny tiny bit!lain la if david archuleta or aaron carter perform kan.

but one thing for sure,nightlife in kl,is scary i should say.there were all kinds of people.wearing weird fugly clothes,with big freakish hair along with their unimaginable attitude.piercings here and there,smoking cigerettes.ugh.teenage malays,you people disgust me.is this the future generation?please tell me no.

plans :

**hangout with kakak after she finish her exam on tuesday
**hangout with amrina and nana on wednesday

thanks...

thanks...

for letting me know that you...

hate me so much...

i'll stop....

to...

i need someone...

to sing me a song...

to wipe my tears...

to listen to me...

to lend me a hand...

to understand how i feel...

to accept me as i am...

to be there when i need someone...

to make me smile...

to be right by my side to comfort me...

to cast away my fears...

to melt away my sorrows...

to catch me when i fall...

to make me feel happy...

and...

to give me a little love that i need...

other

the other side of me...