im packing my bags and i'll be off

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious,Most Merciful

here i am,packing up my bags and i'll be off to iium gombak tomorrow morning.can't wait to enrol myself in iium,as an offiacially university student,undergraduate programme!but at the same time,can't seem to find the mood to study yet.still searching.ahh,and leaving home? :'( -gedik.home is just sebatu away okay.you can go home anytime you want,myra.

yes,i live at kampung orang asli.didnt mean to exaggerate,but,its true though.lol! XD hoping to be in the same room as kak dayah or any other batchmates will do.seniors?pass.and foreigners are okay too i guess.mahallah maryam here i come.near to ruqayyah *grin* heh.anyways,judging from my cute friend,anisah shurfa's blog,taaruf seems to be pretty horrible.the committees?

from what i read,they're not ethical and considerate at all.so as for my batch's taaruf,they'd better be good.otherwise,they'll be getting a bad review from me that's for sure :P hah.

currently listening to : what a feeling-irene cara.its a 1983 song.but loved it!

p/s : friends,i no longer use my maxis number.celcom it is,right now.

alone?

There is so much a person can take being alone. Those who fear that they will give away too much of themselves have no one to turn to except themselves...and there is so little comfort in one's confinment.

drowning

i was drowning when i was saving myself...

you don't have to read...

let the rain fall and let it wash away my tears.

3 days without your smile.i could go mad.trust me,i really could.so,where are you now?

mommy made chocolate chip cookies,yummy.fullstop.

i am sadden and depressed right now.wish i could strum the guitar like michelle branch and sing like christina aguilera,so that i could record and hear myself sing instead of her.

yes,im in dreamville.its almost 2am.

no,i don't want to fall asleep right now,

because...i just want to see you sleep...sooo...peacefully...

career?

what is actually career aspiration?well,perhaps to those who really did digging in about their future might know.since i've been running and tumbling from one course to the other for a few times.and right now?i think should put a stop to it.and i mean it.enough with all those crap about changing course,myra.get a grip of your self.

anyway,i started to think about my future.my job.my living.yeah.i think i do have a stand right now.planning about future is essential for those who haven't.do have your own vison?how do you see yourself in 10 years?what will you be?where you're going to work?how much salary will you earn?will your salary be te same after you've worked for 10 years?

never thought of it?well,think about it. :)

age of mythology

i was going crazy over age of mythology.the minimum time i've spent for a single player game is 20mins.the longest?an hour an 40mins for just a game!a strategy game,that is.sleepy.selamat malam semua.

broken

broken and unfixable...

Crying inside...

The way that I’m feeling is hard to describe

I feel lost and alone in this unbearable life

My emotions are twisted, my stomach in knots

I wish there was something to erase my thoughts

I do not like the feeling of not knowing how you feel

I don’t like looking in your eyes and seeing all my fears

I really feel so empty searching for the light

Maybe if you could please turn it on tonight

My head is all clouded my eyes full of tears

I can’t hold on to this feeling for years

I hope that is passes, maybe merely a phase

I am ready to be out of this daze

I am going to try to fake my smile

Maybe that will last for a while

It you think you see a smile on my face

Look a little deeper you’ll see I’m out of place

Maybe someday soon the sun will shine

Even through the bad days you are always mine.

lost

excuses and no commitments gets in the way and it ends when we have lost faith...its not a small price to pay...get what i meant?

quantity surveyor in dubai?interesting...

as i was browsing through some jobs in dubai for quantity surveying,yes.i could tell that i was getting psyched about it.huhu.one of it :

___________________________________________________________________

Location:
Dubai

Salary:
£60000 - £70000 per annum + flights & medical

Company:
Komak Recruitment

Job type:
Permanent

Date posted:
06/04/2009 16:53

Description:
Quantity Surveyor / Contracts Administrator - M&E ContractorOur client is a leading M&E Contractor who has been successful in winning new projects recently in Dubai and as a result they are looking to boost their commercial team with the appointment of a Quantity Surveyor / Contracts Administrator.The ideal candidate will have around 5yrs+ experience with an M&E contractor, will be travelling on a single status and will be willing to work under multiple Senior Quantity Surveyors on various projects.On offer is an all inclusive salary of around 30,000 - 35,000 AED plus flights & medical.Quantity Surveyor / Contracts Administrator - M&E Contractor

___________________________________________________________________

so,it really is interesting.look at the salary.60 000-70 000 pounds per annum?£60000 convert to malaysian ringgit?60000 (or 70000) x 5 = 300000-350000 per annum devide by 12 months?25000-29000 per month?get real!well,right now,i need a better plan with my future.i'll be taking up qs and get a degree.get married.work in malaysia for a couple of years of maybe after the experience needed by firms and companies in dubai.fly to dubai,stay there and work there.InsyaAllah.its just a minor plan.i need to learn more on plannings from my big brother.he's a total expert in it. :)

things to do tomorrow

things to do tomorrow?

1.call kak sha from petrosains
2.pay a visit to the bookfair.ahaks!yeay! *grin*
3.buy some books?if i find them.
4.inform the other fscc that i'll be goin to the fscc agd on 8th of may
5.send photos to gha a.s.a.p!its been 5 days!ugh.
6.tidy up room.
7.bake apple pie or maybe make apple pancake or crepe :D


***thats about it. :) should get my daily planner.or maybe should put up a digital daily planner at my blog.yup.if it exists.

Thats what you get-paramore

Paramore

Thats What You Get

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.

It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.

And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide

You have made it harder just to go on

And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.

'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.

Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.

And I'll always be just so inviting.

If I ever start to think straight,

This heart will start a riot in me,

Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?

Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

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not-so-good-day

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious Most Merciful...

turned on the wmp.shuffled up the music.play it.yes,crap.haven't eaten anything since morning.my stomach growled.ugh.i need food.last night i cried myself to sleep around almost 4am.then woke up for subuh.chitchatting.sleep at 10am again.woke up around 1pm.haaa.right now,i still can't decide.those who know.knows.those who don't.you have to ask at all.

so far today.i had a rough day.scolded and nagged.but its ok.i made mistakes.people made mistakes.anyone made mistakes.no one is perfect.true.no doubt.uh huh,i am little miss not-so-perfect-and-pathetic.tomorrow?erm.no.maybe the day after tomorrow.wait for me white coat lady.and,i woke up this morning with a message from eza....

i was so devastated by the news from her.shieka is sufferring from a chronic disease.let us take a moment and pray for her.hoping that she'll recover and be able to continue her upcoming days with full strength and good health.get well soon dear.amin....we love u.





*need to solat and feed miss tummy.she's starving.end.

17 again

17 again!zac efron and matthew perry!

goin to watch it!

give up and say goodbye

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious,Most Merciful...

well...somesay we ought to grab the oppurtunity which reveals in front of our very eyes,but sadly i keep pushing them out of my life.what i meant was,when i made a grab for something and i held it tightly,alas,until a certain period of time,eventually i'll give it all up,leaving it behind like a piece of crap.example?aed,1year programme.and then i switched to engineering which i could have finish it up by 1 and a half years(lvl6) and then i ended up 2 years in my foundation studies doing aed again.

back then,i was elected as the head of dis-co in the prefectorial board,v.pres of qm,and committee for living skills club.and i gave it all up just for sbpi gombak.and a few months ago,i had a thought of leaving my v.pres post in fscc.i was nothing compared to syahid,the great leader and very smart.salute to syahid.huhu...........and right now,i made a decision to give up another chance in my life.i do have a reason.but i had to say goodbye to it.


*most probably i'll be staying at home during shortsemester.cool!
**ohhh.cute babies and adorable cats has develop the other part of me.love.care.protective.anak abg hisham,tamam sgt comel.rase nak cubit pipi.ugh.and i miss cfs kittens yang sgt manja.

tagged by adorable bella

anda rase anda hot?
-sket pun x.but my room is hot.i need aircond.

upload gambar kegemaran anda :



kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
-no idea.sbb ade org tu amekkan.haha.

bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
-pizza frozen masuk oven 2 weeks ago

lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
-lagu from my abg(kayant) for his nephew

Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
-i ate nasi like 10mins ago

Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dgn nama apa?
-cat,elisha,elis,teringin org panggil kak shasha(mcm awin nak panggil dlu) :P

Tag lagi 7orang?
1. arif sukarno

2.ila a.k.a mazzy

3.fairuz ayuni

4.yaya edna

5.izyan mastura
6.shafeena atiqa

7.huda saffry

Siapa nombor 1 kepada anda?
-pemilik tulang rusuk.orang yang paling penting lepas family.my boyfriend,bestfriend,heart to listen,my sunshine and rainbow.

Orang nombor 3 ada hubungan dgn sesiapa?
-ayuni?idk.huhu.ade x?

Kata sesuatu berkenaan pada orang no. 5?
-my adek dorm(we're both 19 actually) when i was in form 4 and form 5 in integomb.very cute and adorable.have good leadership qualities.

Bagaimana dgn nombor 4?
-my neighbour in the last 2 semesters.a frequent visitor.very hyper and have an obsession of spongebob.nice and funny also. ;)

Siapakah orang nombor 2?
-my coursemate now and the next four years.insyaallah.pretty too.

Pesanan kepada nombor 6?
-best of luck in your next sem dear :)

Pendapat anda tentang nombor 7?
-very polite and nice.sgt baik.she's my ex rumate when i was in integomb.huhu.

randomness

life is actually about making decisions.and even so if we thought its just a small matter to us,who knows it affects your future.and you may regret it for the rest of your life.i realised i did make a big mistake.and i never stop thinking about it eversince.sometimes we tried hard to be successful,too hard in fact.but alas,we are the ones who suffered and get tangled up in our own misery.

anyway,enuf about it.a few days ago,went to the pc fair and bought some items for miss v(my lappie).i bought a sleeve bag,a cooler pad,keyboard protector,headphone and a screen protector.i wanted to buy a new webcam but i dont really have enough money.that place was packed.the promoters and the people.ugh.some how i managed to get through.haha.

oh and i met zira and don.don was alone while he was trying to find a scanner for his mom and zira was alone too.i had my lil brother with me,so it was okay.oh done with the pc fair.next update?the petrosains first day of training.oh and remind me again,the day was really a tiring day.yeah,everyone else seems to be so pumped up.not me.

by lunch time,i was losing my energy and yes the usual back pain and i thought i was going to be the bongkok 3 suku plus my knee hurts so much.i had this faci with me,kak x and she likes to make weird faces and fake accents.but she's nice.at the end of the day,she asked me questions regarding the exhibit.come on,you dont really expect me to memories all of the exhibits in a day.thats not even familiarising?(is there such word?)

oh and i hate putra lrt during peak hours.they had me suffocating all the way to and from klcc.i can barely breathe.even if i wear perfume before going to klcc knowing that the surrounding or the people around me will evetually absorb the sweet smell leaving me with nothing when i arrive at klcc.what a life.

anyway,thats about it.for the time being.end.

hyped

due to some certain reasons,i have a few pimples breeding on my face.ugh.they're awful.oh and i've received the offer letter from gombak,in which im totally hyped about it!and im almost out of my mind thinking about the change of course.help me!

facts about me

FOOD

• i can't eat chicken starting form 4.
• i hate onions
• i dislike katsup(tomato,chilli,etc)
• i only eat certain types of vege(mushrooms,cabbage,lettuce,brocolli,cauliflower,baby corn)
• i don't like rice.i eat it when i had to.i'll avoid it when i can.
• i enjoy eating italian,western and chinese cuisine.
• i hate satay.
• i don't fancy durians at all
• i think petai is scary

FEAR

• im scared of heights,but not all the time.i hate the lifts at klcc.the stairs at klcc convention centre.roller coasters.space shot.
• im terrified of deep water.in which at times when i dont wear a lifejacket.swimming pools,lake.that is why i still can't swim eventhough i went to swimming class.just for a semester though.
• i hate insects.even cute butterflies.
• i loathe crowds.previously,i was about to faint at dataran merdeka when i was in form 4.plus i hate it when i hate to take up the lrt to go back home.
• i think doctors are scary and i dont really have the courage when it comes to mdical check ups.

baik?

kalu baik,orang pijak kepala dan sakit hati.kalu jahat,orang mengata tapi hati tak sakit.lebih baik jadi jahat.

**tak la jahat betul,i mean,we have to be selfish in certain situations right?

12th april 2009

the volunteers orientation programme ended.i've gotten the internal programmes department.what i've wanted. :) alhamdulillah.so,the on job training will be on the 15th,21st,22nd,25th of april,1st,6th,8th and 9th of may.that is long.so,i'll be the official volunteer after the 9th that's for sure.*sigh* lambatnye...

i had a nice time knowing the centre and the other volunteers as well.they were sporting and jovial and easy going.fizi our afro.cool hair,dude.abg zoel classy and stylish.smart too!german graduate.syed ariff cool and shy.akid?cfs iium student.locked in jamban.wei keong,blur2 and kinda weird.kak ummu,nice and very reserved.abg ja'a,said goodbye to his long hair just for petrosains.a big sacrifice there :P

shafeeq,quiet and seems to be a pretty smart guy.kak intan,commander.iqbal,very outspoken and utp grad like shafeeq.pak ali,our senior citizen.fiqa,my schoolmate,very cute and adorable.nisa,collegemate,iium,chinese look,confident.baim,brutal face,miat graduate,brother is a volunteer currently.anne,schoolmate also,debater goes same as fiqa,cheerful.

alif,tall,likes to make fool of wei keong.haha.ila,pleasant and happy-go-lucky,collegemate as well,in fact will be taking the same course,insyaAllah.abg khairi,rich,likes to make fun of others,married.they are 3 other names i cant remember who they are...haha...anyway enuf about petrosains...






note to self : appointment with white coat lady at clinic idzham in a week time.drink a lot of water to avoid being scolded.blood loves my urine.haha.praying with all my heart.i made a promise to myself that i'll be fine. :)

500th post

In the name of Allah,Most Gracious Most Merciful...

on hiatus for a few days.well apparently i've been quite busy.i've had the petrosains interview on the 4th of april at 9am(apparently they were not punctual!)they started at 945am and i was the first person in the first batch of april intake interviews :) there were 3 staff as our interviewers.i greeted them with courtesy and with polite plus a warm tight lipped smile as soon as i entered the not-so-french-doors :P kidding.thought,i was hoping to get a great first impression.

apparently i have another friend with me too,ila.and the "formal conversation" were conducted in a group of 4.me,ila, a guy(stpm leaver) and another elderly guy.i did pretty well.rather than to talk much.i made short but compact descriptions of my education backgrounds and my co-curricular activities which i've joined in cfs,the student council,creative club and ......(yes my mind suddenly shut down by itself without any instructions!).heh.my brainy brain went totally blank.

another club was getar(grup penggiat sastera)!how could i've blanked out?i apologized and they had a short laugh about it.huhu.they asked several more questions and one of them gave me a compliment,said my answer was very good.yeay! :)im glad.and as usual i did have my level of confidence up high.just to make sure that i'll be calm and avoid having the jitters or any kind or nervousness.

after all they are just absolutely normal,ordinary and nice people.we try to impress them,nailed it,they give us the job,simple.ugh.pure crap.haha.ignore the words.during my interview i would rather not speak about something too lenghty.trust me.they will get bored.when you see they strated to play with their handphone covers and started to look down when you were talking and obviously,sighing.i did see they were doing it(the interviewers).not during my time of course.

what do you expect?you came to the job interview to crap about irrelevant stuff.funny i tell you.serious la sket.anyway,i got the call at 2pm on sunday.nailed the interview and need to attend some orientation.from monday till friday.and today's wednesday.throughout the orientation,i met new faces.and mostly are older than me.huh.19 is the youngest age for april 2009 intake that's for sure.

21 volunteers.7 girls.6 of em are from iium plus another boy from iium.cool.we have a group of iium students here.haha.anyway.now i know the life of being a working girl.its tough.i dont get to sleep cozily anymore after subuh prayers(mengada-ngada) and i had to squeeze my 45kg body to fit in the putra lrt in the mornings and evenings like 10 sardines in a can i should say.boy i do get tired.the whole journey.i could win an award for the most static person in the putra.

ohh.and the heat of other bodies were transmitted into your body.(if you know what i mean)didnt get it?well what i meant is there's no space or gap between the people around you.just teeny tiny ones.another person is just like zero centimetres from you and their heads are like 15centimetres from your face.plus gripping those germ-holding-metal-handles (usually i dont really mind but seeing so many people with so many hands on them,makes me wonder...do you...?) erkhhhh!terrifying!

and a habit of observing people could get away far from me.i didnt mean to be such a nosy and busybody person.and sebenarnye x ingin pun nak tengok muka korang.just observing in terms of attitude and appearance-i mean the way they dress up.so,a few hours ago,while i was in the cylinder sardine can(putra) there's this lady behind me.her handphone rang and i think a message came in.so i acted normal.no big deal about it.

but.unfortunately.i caught this nosy and sgt busybody lady leering down (judging by her eyes-which is none other than obvious!) at the lady who was shorter and reading her message and typing a new one(how'd i knew?with the sound of the keypad of course).i took a cold stare at the makcik busybody.hey.message orang pun nak baca ke?-dalam hati.though i was hoping to say that out loud.but no.that would be embarrassing and i would be belasah cause the lady was tall with big frames.

the lady or a.k.a makcik busybody(haha) caught me staring at her.and i did gave her the disgusted look.(in my eyes je ok).and i looked away.just to convey the message that i absolutely and 120% feel that she's invading the privacy of others and hated it!huhu.somehow,i'll stop here.and to be continued in the next post about the orientation programme in petrosains. :) end.

**oh,this is my 500th post! :)

merajuk

merajuk............dan kecil hati............................

breakdown

about to lose my sanity.having an emotional breakdown.do not disturb.hati pecah.sedang memujuk diri sendiri.nak lari.lari jauh.

to whom am i referring to?

i have this so-called friend who betrays her own friend and pretty much a big fat filthy liar i should say.no wonder you dont have many friends around you.haha.i've seen your true colour now.that's for sure.plus you have problems,girl.

you hate hypocrites but actually you are one of them.yes.has anyone ever told you that?and im glad that you are so far away.and honey,btw,you do curse a lot too you know?didn't your parents teach you about manners?oh and thanks for your sarcastic words yet i find them disgustingly interesting because you seemed to make me look bad.

but,after i took some of my time and thought about it,well,it wasn't much of a big deal anyway.in fact i wasted my precious time thinking about it in the first place,dear.and you did a great job of making a fool of yourself.give yourself a pat on your back.a troublesome friend with a long lost identity,you are.just take a look at yourself in the mirror.and tell me what do you see...

there.i'd prefer to be straightforward.so,you know who you are friend. :) no hard feelings?i dont think so.lastly.have a heart.didn't mean to have such outburst anger.just letting out the unsatisfaction which boils inside for so long.

quizbox

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

al,i did it

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU
1. myra
2. elis
3. cat

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE
1. 16th feb
2. 26th dec
3. 29th october :)

THREE THINGS YOU’VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES
1. shower(its really hot in gombak!)
2. ate
3. talked to mummy

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. confide in to someone
2. call someone-uknowwhoyouare
3. to have something i want

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. a trip to london
2. a dslr
3. money

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. read r.l stine's books
2. blogging
3. sleep

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. paris
2. london
3. rome

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. ice lemon tea
2. iced tea
3. apple juice

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. purse
2. tissue
3. compact powder

THREE THINGS NOT TO BE FOUND IN YOUR BAG
1. make-up(al,true.besides compact)
2. *blank*
3. *blank*

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. black
2. pink
3. white

THREE LEAST FAVORITE COLORS:
1. green
2. army green
3. greyish green

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1. bb area
2. mid
3. sunway

TOP THREE WHO DO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS TAG:
1. no one
2. no one
3. oh and no one.haha

TOP THREE “THINGS” SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. my new notebook
2. my handphone
3. my ipod

TOP THREE REASONS YOU ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. al thinks im gonna do it.
2. i want to do it.
3. just filling up my time. :P

wonderful day

big bro's home.a new presie :) my newest most favourite thing.my *gn-nr38e!thank you abg!what a wonderful gift!went out with precious yesterday and had a great time! :D received a call from petrosains as well for the interview for volunteers.yes!!another great thing. :)

interview : 4th april 2009-saturday

time : 930am(if i am not mistaken)

attire : proper-no jeans,sandals,slippers (im gonna wear baju kurung anyway plus black shoes)

training : 6th april until 10th april.unfortunately i have plans to go to pulau kapas from midnight 9th april until 12th april.(if jadi la kan) *smile*

alhamdulillah.thank you for everything,Allah,The Most Gracious,The Most Merciful.